The Past Year

My life has completely changed within the past year. The best way to go about it, I suppose, is to write a list of what ultimately led me up to where I currently find myself. ;) Let's start, shall we?

• Made straight As Spring of 2010; I remember that was a huge accomplishment for me and brought my GPA up to a 3.4 or so. Now it's at a 3.6 and rising :D
• Karaoke, karaoke, and more karaoke.
• I started going out with Daniel, a friend of Nadav's.
• Aimee came to stay with us for a while. She planned on actually staying for good, but that didn't happen due to unforeseen circumstances.
• We had some crazy times, crazy parties, as well as crazy uncomfortable and uncertainness. Life was a blur for a couple months, I don't know, it was weird.
• Daniel, Ben, and Allen got arrested on July 7th, the morning after my crazy, almost infamous 20th birthday party. They said they were going to head out for a couple hours and then come back, but they never did, and that night I found out what happened. Aimee was dating Ben at the time so she had just as shitty of a time when we found out about it.
• Then it started; putting money on books, paying for phone calls, writing letters, sending pictures, putting more money on books so that they could get as much as soap and towels (decent food if they were lucky), travelling up to Cobb County Jail once or twice a week for visitation, calling a lawyer and bail bondsmen, talking to his mom who terrified the crap out of me, trying to scrape together whatever money I had, getting things together to possibly sell to get them out of there, and making crazy deals with people so I could borrow money. None of it was wise though, so I didn't follow through on it. Instead, I waited for everything to run its course.
• In early August, Daniel and Ben were moved to Dekalb county jail and Daniel called me saying how horrible it was there and they were in lock down almost constantly. ...Whatever dude.
• Around the same time, my mom started discussing divorcing Shingo and moving back to Florida. Aimee also got a job at my work and had worked there a couple weeks, which was fun... She also got a tattoo gun and she tattooed me for the first time, but the damn thing disappeared because the needle didn't eject the ink deep enough into my skin, hahaha..
• Daniel got bailed out sometime around the 20th of August and was sent to a rehab center on the 23rd. I told him to not worry if he couldn't call me for a while and to focus on himself since that's what rehab is about.
• Mom moved to Florida on August 22nd and Aimee went with her after quitting her job at my work. At the same time, my car engine failed, so I was left with no car, which was a huge problem but was the least of my concern up until after my family moved back to FL. Shingo went with them to help move things, and I remember saying goodbye like it was yesterday.. My mom came back up to the door almost in tears and told me Matilda was crying and asked me to go out there and say goodbye to her again. Matilda then hugged me and said, "It's not because we're moving, it's because I'm going to miss you! :'(" and everyone started crying. Freaking horrible. After that, I watched them leave and climbed the steps to the empty house. I can still remember how it felt. It's one thing moving away from home; almost everyone does that at some point, but when your family leaves you for another state and you are left feeling totally and utterly alone, or at least I did. It fully hit me when I walked into my room which was now nearly empty since mom brought most of my furniture with her, as well as my cat. :( Everytime I saw something white (and possible fluffy) out of the corner of my eye I'd think it was him. Even one day after I moved into my new apartment, I thought I was about to trip over him.. :/
  
• Well, my car stopped working, so I was left with no transportation and had to ask for rides to get to work, and it stayed that way for a couple months. In the meantime, Shingo said he wasn't comfortable with the living arrangement and that I'd have to move out pronto. I had almost no money what so ever, so naturally I freaked out and reconsidered moving to FL with my family, but decided to somehow figure out a way to stay.
• In September I got my car, a 1998 Toyota Corolla. I remember I was so proud of somehow coming up with $4500 cash for that thing. It felt surreal when I started out with only around $500-1000.
• In October I moved into my own apartment. I remember being so worried I wouldn't be able to afford it once I realized I also had to pay a security deposit on top of one month's rent, but it worked out. :)
• Slowly, but surely I moved in while trying to keep my grades up.
• In the meantime, Daniel was still in rehab and I even went up to the rehab facility to participate in family week or whatever the fuck. Sometime in October, right before I got my apartment, he got out of rehab and then dumped me almost immediately, saying he just couldn't have any girls in his life. A few days later, we got back together. :S
• Semester ended, and I made a B+ and two As, I was pretty satisfied since that was the worst half a year of my life and I somehow still managed to keep my grades up even with no internet at my house, fighting with Aimee, and not even being able to really keep in touch with my mom, topped with work and all the crap going on with Daniel; I had to go to therapy meetings with his parents to learn how to deal with him properly and we fought constantly, mainly about the lies he told me, but I still stuck through it, which was dumb.
• I celebrated my first Christmas alone, but my dad came the day before to eat dinner with me and a couple of his friends, as well as my friend Kiah, came over. It was nice, but then Christmas came. I knew I missed my family.. But when I put up a Christmas tree and laid in my bed after work that night I knew something was missing... And it was really depressing. :( Better luck next time, right? I still enjoyed it to the best of my ability while trying to hide my Christmas tree from all the Jewish neighbors..
• New Year's rolled around, and I decided that after everything, I would improve my life in any way possible; I started working out again and eating healthy, and I felt great for a while.
• Snowpocalypse 2011 happened, which was AWESOME! :D I definitely took the opportunity to sled down hills and across the frozen bruster's parking lot by Kroger with the huge group of people that was there. ;) I also did not have school or work that entire week (which happened to be the first week of school this semester).
• A week or two after that, I got tired of all Daniel's lies; staying up late at night talking to girls on his webcam... Telling me that he was talking to Jewish guys (and made up entire stories and conversations) when they were really girls who he exchanged numbers with and was flirting with; the only reason I found out was because one of them texted him when I hung out with him. That was only one series of lies out of many. When I tried talking to him about it and asked why he couldn't be honest with me, he just said, "I don't know what to do about it, you just can't trust me, I can't do anything about it." After a few days of that and no progress I finally said fuck it, it's over. After everything, it was just too much. Months and months of that.. I just couldn't do it anymore. So, I escaped to Michelle's for about a week (I love her to death). Daniel had a cow and tried so hard to get me back and after about a week I finally gave in but told him I really wanted to trust him and to please just be honest with me, and he finally said he was sorry and that he wouldn't do that again. He was wrong.
• School, work, school work, arguments with Aimee, wondering when I'd hear from my mom again, etc, etc, etc, lunch with friends, karaoke, etc. I kept struggling to make things right.
• Things seemed to finally be getting better in February 2011 and then I went to Tallahassee, Florida on the 27th and stayed a couple days (and said hi to Maria in Stockbridge on the way! <3 and then got a speeding ticket... -_-).. Got to see where my mom works too (the hospital I was born in) and got to meet and take a picture with the Dr. who delivered me, craaazyness!
• On my way back on March 1st, Daniel said how he was going to come see me when I got home, but when I actually got home he said he didn't want to... And then sent me a weird text message later that said, "Come listen to music with me!".....What? I felt like something weird was up. He said he actually wasn't in the area but could come back, so he swung by and picked me up for a quick drive around the neighborhood and said how happy he was to have me and everything else in his life, and kept getting all these calls but wouldn't answer, and acted like he was on some sort of upper, all jittery and nervous and just WEIRD. After that, he dropped me off and I didn't hear from him again that night. The next morning he came by and told me to come outside, and proceeded to dump me once again. He said he didn't feel anything for me and hadn't the past month or so, didn't care about me, didn't think we clicked anymore because he's changing, etc, and then left me outside of my door sobbing, and that was the last time I saw him.
• Later that week, Aimee (who was in town) and I went to get Maria and we ended up going to a rave and having girls night after girls night which was nice... I love them <3
• That Sunday Aimee, Maria, and I went to karaoke with Candace, Ace, and Stephen followed by Ihop ;) ...And other fun things ;)
• I started taking singing lessons. :)
• Then I found out that Daniel actually cheated on me not too long before he went to jail... And of course he denied it when I confronted him, but then finally admitted it. Douche. When I asked Ben about it he asked, "With who, the black chick?".... No, what black chick? Wow...
• More school, spent lots of time with Aimee, and Aimee met her lover boy; he randomly added her on facebook and they've been talking ever since (now they're actually going out; funny how love works sometimes).
• Ace invited me to come to the Foo Fighter's concert in Tennessee on May 20th and then to his cousin's wedding in Chicago the day after! AHHHHHHHH!!!! <3
• Started going out with Ace on May 23rd, which is the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time... It's absolutely unbelievable how much he makes me smile and gives me butterflies.. It's incredible. :)
• On May 30th I got into a severe car accident and totaled my Corolla. :( I hydroplaned to the left of a school bus close the Pleasant Hill Rd exit on I-85 S coming from Ace's house, and spun around across the highway and then head on into the median. When I crawled out of the smoke filled car I couldn't believe I was alive. And by crawl, I mean, I could only open the door about half way. Two cop cars, an ambulance and a tow truck came and needless to say, I had to call in to work as this happened about 15 minutes before I was supposed to be there. Once the adrenaline rush wore off, I could barely move my right arm and it hurt... I remember I was on the phone with Candace and I just started crying because it all hit me at one time and it was really horrible. To this day I still haven't been able to purchase a car, but hopefully I'll be able to within the next few months. Note to self: GET CREDIT! Candace came and picked me up and took me to the emergency clinic to check my arm out, and luckily it was just severely bruised and the nerves were going hay wire. Candace stayed with me for over 24 hours to make sure I was ok, and even drove me up to Laurenceville with a bad stomach (and called around to see where my car was for me) to check out my car and see if it was totaled and if we could sell any parts. Yup, it was completely totaled and I was able to sell about $300 worth of parts... Not much for a $4500 car, but at least I got something back.
• The wreck happened on a Wednesday, and Ace came over on Saturday and surprised me with flowers, chocolate, and banana pudding since they didn't have rice pudding... So incredibly sweet. <3 That was almost a month ago and it still makes me smile so huge haha. :)
• LOTR night with Chris and Tyler! Note to self: If Chris asks where the Jack is, don't tell him; he'll blame you for telling him later on.
• Random photoshoots with Michelle and later with Candace and Cassie!
• Got to borrow a 1999 Saturn from pappa's lawyer friend, Bob, who has been very generous to let me keep it until now (2 weeks later)... And I still don't think I need to give it back anytime within the near future but we will see.. If he needs it then I'll need to bring it back before I'd otherwise have to.
• Dusted Bob's entire house with Michelle and Ian as well as moved furniture. They left with all this old photography equipment and international alcoholic beverages, which they seemed to love... I was left with a severe cold-like sickness for a few days, I'm guessing due to the heaps and heaps of saw dust everywhere, but whatever, I loved looking at all his ancient books and artifacts. ;)
• The next night Ace and I saw Your Highness (AMAZING movie if you want to laugh all the way through the movie and out to your car...and possibly all the way home). Before the movie he even took me into a cosplay store, lolol, it was cool as hell actually; I'm not gonna lie. Also, some Hispanic dude tried selling us a straightener and asked if either of us use one and I pointed at Ace... Hahaha he looked so embarrassed, I felt so bad.... <3
• Tests, tests, tests.
• NEW FOO FIGHTER'S CD! I am pumpeddd.
• Ace took me to Helen! Wonderful day which I'd love to write more about if it wasn't 3:30 in the morning and if I got more than 3 hours of sleep last night.. I found out at 2am that I had a test in biology 6 hours later, and my friend Claudia had no clue either... Wow.
• Scream 4!!! Ace's friends are great haha and Yeni and I bet Ace would scream like a girl but no... no luck this time... lol

Long story short, things have gotten a lot better lately. I'll have to write more later when I'm awake enough to do so without the edges of my vision fading in and out, yes, I am VERY tired! My bed is calling... mm... soft....bed.... I can't waittt..... I am fallng aslep as Im' typinsg.. Haha woww, gnight!